30. February 5, 2014 Attended two events that I can say I am proud of. The highlight of the MDG Forum, though, was meeting the head of the Philippine Toy Library and learning more about their vision. I love listening to what people are passionate about and these people are definitely inspiring! Also, I found this beautiful flower in class today. Brightened up my morning easily.
Also, it was great being in the MCA Miting de Avance and Under the Stars with the other presidents. My gosh we’ve come so far!!!
33. February 8, 2014
People who genuinely care about your troubles.
A cat’s scratching post, lavender, depressed, and stressed. Thank you for “reading” me today, AJ!
34. February 9, 2014
Spent my Sunday morning running my first 5k marathon for special kids! It was such a huge event and I am just so proud of SPEED for doing such a good job with it. The rest of my day was spent watching Brooklyn Nine-Nine with Gabe and sleeping off my tired state.
This week has not been easy. I actually started regressing again and thought countless times of ending things. I could never do it though, because I thought of just how much I was losing. Just how much I wouldn’t see, touch, feel, smell, taste once I decided.
That’s the crazy thing about life. You learn to be jaded, cynical, or violent, but at the same time love it too much to let it slip through your fingers. I think I’m one of the lucky ones who actually sees that. I still don’t understand why things happen the way they do or why they even happen at all but I guess life isn’t about being fair but instead realistic.
I hope one day I get the courage to actually embrace that truth and be content with it. Otherwise, I don’t know what I’d do.
21. January 27, 2014
Leaving these little envelopes and helping out the cause definitely started my day right!
22. January 28, 2014
Magel brought this phone with her to school and I loved it! It was so bright pink and took the loveliest pictures. Phones like this remind me that I don’t need the best gadgets to prove my worth in photography. I just have to know my basics well enough to apply them.
23. January 29, 2014
Grown up outfit. Grown up bag. Grown up lunch.
Alex, Danie, and I talked about graduation, the job search, the condo search, salaries, and more. The future is definitely scary but I find that facing it with the best people makes it bearable.
24. January 30, 2014
Presidential duty no. 10 DONE!
25. January 31, 2014
The best part of the day was catching up with all of my favorite TV series including Gravity Falls. I’m so excited for it to return this February!
26. February 1, 2014
Ball or no ball. I am so lucky to have this stunner for a date.
Also, Alex, Gabe and I went to SM Megamall and Shangri La to shop for a gown. I love that I got to spend such a tiring task with two of my favorite people.
27. February 2, 2014
Spent the day with vertigo and Gabe. Now You See Me is such an awesome movie and watching it with someone as goofy as Gabe made it twice as good.
In comparison to last week, this week was really great. I wish weeks were more like this!
14. January 20, 2014
The outgoing CB deliberated on the incoming CB and finalized a bit of it. Afterwards, the gang (not complete) headed to Carmela’s. Love hanging out with these people!
15. January 21, 2014
This boy can definitely spoil me!
16. January 22, 2014
Headed to DDB to get my certification, evaluations, and this neat package from Abbey! I love it when I finish everything I need to do. Productivity gives me such determination to do everything else. At night, I spent the time with Max and Miggy discussing Philosophy and the paper.
17. January 23, 2014
Got home at 1:30. Wrote my paper till 2:00. Woke up at 4:30. Wrote till 6:00. Slept at 7:00. Woke up at 8:00. Practiced with Daryll and Gerard at 9:00. Went to consult with Calano at 10:00. Went back to the dorm to get my package at 11:30. Went back to the lib and then wrote my paper till 1:30. Did a run through with Daryll and Gerard at 2:00. Performed at 2:30. Went back to the lib till 4:00. Deliberating whether I should go to class till 4:30. Went to MVP for Danie to proof read at 4:30. Wrote my paper till 6:20. Wrote my Theo paper till 7:00. Finalized Theo presentation and practiced a bit with Chloe and Larz till 7:45. Presentation at 8:30.
WHAT A FREAKING DAY.
18. January 24, 2014
There were a number of things I loved about this day.
1. Gabe visited me in the room for ARSAfest with Catching Fire.
2. The goodness that is Cebu Lechon.
3. Danie and Mheanne hanging out in my room
4. Finding Danie and Mheanne still in my room a few hours after.
5. Resting up in the library with Gabe
6. The loveliness of our Broadcast Advertising ads.
Here’s a little bit of it:
Rested for the day and spent the latter part of the day with Gabe at the library. Found the maintenance room open and saw this little discovery. Earlier on in the day, I’ve noticed a lot of poetic vandalism in the girls’ bathroom. Not that this is vandalism, but I love how words can definitely express such beauty and power.
Speaking of the power in words, here is how Broadcast Advertising went with Danie and I.
19. January 25, 2014
This day was absolutely the best! Got kidnapped by my two block mates and we went to the St. Paul Pasig Fair. It was great; I got to know more about their school, the new building, and took a lot of photos of my beautiful tour guides. Today made me definitely miss hanging out with girlfriends. I never got to really hang out with anyone outside of school that wasn’t for work. I wish I had more of these. I wish we had more of these.
20. January 26, 2014
This beautiful breakfast is all it takes to make up for everything! 🙂
This week was exhausting, frustrating, and depressing. As this project has advised me, however, I must look at the bright little things that make days more special. Even if, as a whole, the day pretty much sucked. Luckily for me, the week ended on a good note and left with a lot of promise for the next. I think that is a pretty great consolation for a bad week.
I’m glad to still be able to look at the bright side of things even when things start to bring me down.
7. January 13, 2014
Today was not a good day, to be honest. I started my morning crying and felt horrible for the rest of the day. Good thing, fried chicken was invented. Yup, chicken goood.
8. January 14, 2014
Gabe and I started having a lot of trouble but thankfully we had pause moments like these to remind us of happier days. We had a photoshoot for CoSA’s human auction. Him carrying me was no easy task since I have really bad trust issues. Jumping on top of him took about twenty minutes of deciding whether I should do it or not.
9. January 15, 2014
For as long as the day ended with us being friends again, then it was an okay day.
10. January 16, 2014
I had interviews for most of the day and forgot to study up on my Political Science. I did horribly and scored a 0 out of a 100 for my day’s recitation but luckily for me it didn’t bring me down as much as I thought it would.
11. January 17, 2014
12. January 18, 2014
Today started great with Broadcast Advertising and later a Ramen Oh date with Gabe and Don Jon. What really struck me on this day was my professor’s wide grasp for knowledge.
Nothing gets me more driven than passionate people and productivity. When people inspire me with their drive and their capacity for knowledge, it makes me want to be a better person as well. I love learning from different people and talking about different things with them. I love discovering new things and getting better myself.
13. January 19, 2014
Gabe, Johnet, and I watched Ali perform for Entablado’s “Juan Tamban”. I got to understand a filipino play for once (please don’t judge me haha) and really relate to the message the play tried to express. Before watching the play, Gabe and I bought a cake for Ali (since all the nearby flower shops had lousy flowers).
Afterwards, Gabe and I headed to Katipunan Extension to eat. Since we decided to eat somewhere we haven’t tried before, we ate at Cafe 205. It was not a good decision on our part. The food wasn’t great and was priced expensively but we took the bad dinner as a learning experience to never eat there again. Haha! We, then, went to Conti’s for a good dessert. Their cakes are heaven!
As you may have read from my previous post, I have decided to make 2014 less of a negative year than the years before. Luckily for me, I was able to find a website that will hopefully help me out with that. 100happydays.com challenges the individual into being happy for 100 days by looking for things that brightened up their day (everyday for a hundred days). The site also gives us reasons why people often dismiss this challenge and reasons for why people should try it as well. Given that we now exist in a world that is so fueled by achievement and the never ending update of what is bigger, better, and more efficient, we, as a result, turn busy and forget about the little things that actually made us smile and thankful. From here, there comes a bigger tendency to focus on the negative because we seemingly don’t “see” the good things happening to us and only remember the bad things.
Each week I will be posting the things that made me happy for each day starting from January 7.
1. January 7, 2014
To be honest and brief, I hate my birthday.
Every year feels just like the other and I feel no more special than anyone else not celebrating their birthday at all. Not that I want all the attention if that’s what you were thinking. But I do wish sometimes that the day of my birth would feel more special than normal.
This year, I achieved that. Or at least some extent of it. This year I was going for genuine. I told myself earlier on, “no matter who does and doesn’t. It’s all about the people who mean it.”
My friends from the dorm greeted me at midnight with pizza, notes, and a serenade. This gave me a good start to my day because I didn’t expect it at all. It was great to see my friends again and everyone seemed to be really happy. Which made me happy.
Gabe then surprised me later in the morning with breakfast from Family Mart and a bouquet of sunflowers. The morning was definitely the best for me. I received a lovely shortcake, a letter, and pictures from Ina and tear-jerking words from all my other friends care of Gabe.
Towards the end of the day, I started feeling blue and more insecure than ever but I’d like to think that it’s a part of this growth I need to embrace. The important moral lesson I’ve learned from all this is that you can’t choose your greetings. Sometimes, yes, it would be nice to be greeted by people you love, but at the same time it would be nice to be celebrated by people who actually care. And that I think is what is truly genuine.
2. January 8, 2014
Today started with spending time with Gabe. He needed to get his mind off things and so we landed ourselves in Conti’s with a lovely hearty lunch and ‘no-problems’ session. We ended up talking about Theology, religion, marriage, and child free couples. Afterwards, we went to UP’s Via Mare where I pitched a CoSA project to 2 advertising presidents and the FAO president herself.
Afterwards, we headed back to school for our weekly CODE meeting which ended the day with riding with Carmela to Third Cup, a good reflection, and having some well deserved Tomato Brie.
3. January 9, 2014
Graduation is in a few months. Thoughts of it scare me sometimes but not this morning. This morning felt okay.
4. January 10, 2014
After a crazy day of CoSA meetings, application forms, and problems, I ended the day with fellow officers listening to the End of Sem Council Report. It was good to end the day with people I’ve come to know. For as long as I have these people to guide me in my last hurrahs as President, then I think I’ll be okay.
5. January 11, 2014
6. January 12, 2014
Sunday was spent with the Constitution and a lovely book searching with Vince. Everything in Fullybooked Cubao was 50% off! Unfortunately, when we got there, all the good books were gone and I ended up buying nothing. Afterwards, Vince treated me to Cibo which I think made up for coming out of Fullybooked empty handed.